| Addiction
I am in the Addiction faze And this RAGE won't go away I try to clean my skin of sticky fingers And sweaty desires But there's no cleaning the SIN I've crashed again Back in the break down again And all they do is pass me another drink Now the entire bottle And they spill all the pills in my hands They shoved my head below the quicksand And they dare me to breathe They dare me to live They dare me to give them the chance to hurt me But it won't work, see Cause I know the plan and this isn't Going to happen to me again I am above the Addiction stage My face has been wrinkled with hurt And incase you can't see the pain It's more than skin deep I want to seep 6 feet under Because of the pain Because of my mother. i don't want to wake up anymore i don't want to wake up anymore i don't want to wake up anymore So lock the door, lay on the floor And go with me I won't be long It only takes a second to die And we have forever to fly I'm going to stand before you all One last time before I fall into the sky Shining like a crazy star in my mind In my mind And tonight will be the last time I call to you I'm not about to show my true self Because you made my self worth feel like dirt And now the hurt will show on each wrist Under viens and it will be the same I will flow freely over grounds I am passed the Addiction maze And my finish line is calling mine Please note this PLEASE NOTE THIS I threw hand after fist into walls after doors Because of this And it hit through my soul and I will live on In spirit But my body will be no more Don't give me that "i love you" shit Because I'm sick of it You want to know why I'm gone Beause of that HOUSE this FAMILY that MOM I'm seeping 6 feet under Even in life and this stife won't end Pass me my drink and pills please If it's not them that I die from It will be the disease I can't take all this pain And it's always been the same I am suffocating under family hands And the demands are too stong they are all wrong they are all wong they are all wrong They turned off my radio and ended my life song No more late night screams No more lying Hurting or Abusing And maybe I'm just Musing But this is all true And before you know it This could or probably is happening to you I was born with the Addiction taste And maybe to die will be a waste But to live took away all I wanted to make of myself And once again this Addiction has come in Deeper than my skin And I've become more than wasted away. i don't want to wake up anymore i don't want to wake up anymore please don't make me wake up please don't make me wake up please don't make me wake up |